Relax and Be

Thunder and lightning surrounded my small tent, rain pelted down like rocks on tin. I lay huddled with my sleeping bag pulled up around my head and all my little worries tucked neatly around me, safe and sound. I hold them close, they make up who I am, (or do they?). As I lay there unable to sleep I started thinking about the worries I kept so close to me, protecting and feeding them as if their very existence depended solely on me and kept us all alive and of worth. How simple it would be if I could place the worries of being a Mom, wife, employee, friend, controller of all things outside of my control, outside the tent just for awhile and just carry one title, Daughter of God. Completely dependent on his love, care and protection. Completely surrounded by his love, uninhibited by the shields of self inadequacy and self imposed unworthiness that I stubbornly hold in place. Just be. Be loved, be cared for, be tended after. The realization that I could indeed be just that brought me so much joy and peace that I could hardly stay still. Truly that is what I am, a daughter of a Heavenly Father that loves me. In this moment, all is right in the world because a loving Heavenly Father and his tender mercies are blessing it and me. Slowly my worries made their way back into my tent and found their comfy places in my heart and mind. But I learned in that one sacred moment that I can have joy and peace and security anytime I want it. All I have to do is stop, feel and BE!